As I wake up today I’ll be a regular birthday celebrator.
I’ll go to work with no elaborate plans or adventurous things waiting to do with friends and family.
I’ll stick to my carefully created routine of work, counseling residents, and my regular after work shenanigans.
And none of this bothers me, (although an oatmeal raisin cookie from Desserts Ect. would be lovely)
I’m settled. At peace. Right where I’m supposed to be.
For the first time in the past 6 years it all makes sense.
The challenges, the pain, obstacles, hard lessons, it all makes sense.
Every. Single. Moment.
I could talk about my friendships that God had healed, the wins, the successes and growth but none of that is why.
This year has been a year of living out the promise that “Nothing is ever wasted!”
No experience, no obstacle, no hurdle.
Absolutely none of it.
You see God has held tightly to every dream and allowed it to bloom at the exact time that I would enjoy the sweet perfume of its labor and sacrifice.
He has lined my journey with promises that have lit every single path that I walked, which led me to the exact moment in purpose that they illuminated the sky with realization.
He was slow and intentional about handpicking the champions who would hold me up when the delay and waiting felt lonely, tiresome, or just downright exhausting.
He rebuilt walls that I created the wrong way and made them strong and sturdy in a painfully grueling restoration process.
It’s been a beautiful experience after what has felt like non-stop chaos and uncertainty of what the future would hold.
He has been giving me the most beautiful, sweet, tender, and marvelous reminders that He cares, never leaves me to fend for myself, and always has a plan even if I can’t see it.
I’m unsure of what this next chapter of life holds but I know that I’m vowing to live it on purpose and not wait for the next magical marvelous thing to occur.
Because after all, His hand is in it all which means it’s all marvelous and will forever leave my awestruck.
